I learned this year, the exquisite beauty that exists in the Divine Masculine. His vastness and availability is akin to the image of Shu, the Egyptian God of the Air holding up Nuit, Goddess of the night sky.
He holds her great star body outstretched above him, exalting her form, her beauty, her power. He is the space between the cosmos and the Earth, separating the lovers so that life can be lived. In his service, he is fulfilled. And through this service, exalted in his own right, fulfilling his beautiful role in service to the All. Being the element of Air, only he can provide this service, which makes him unique, as well as part of the greater body of the universe. Fulfilling his role, playing his part.
We are only satisfied with life, our exquisite life, if we are letting Life live through us.
When we align with a Higher Will and allow the force of God, nature, and All to move through us, there is so much space, and the path is easy and effortless. But if we use our personal will to manifest a desire that is seeded from the ego, it’s an uphill battle, full of suffering and very exhausting.
We are very powerful beings, and therefore we can use our will to achieve things we feel we deserve or would make us seem grander, as ego desires are often overcompensating for insecurity. Or, we can surrender to what is easy and allow ourselves to be moved through, to be breathed by the forces of life. This gentle, Taoist Way will always be easier because it aligns with the forces of nature and what it is to embody pure being.
As we surrender and let the universe move through us we acknowledge that we are part of it. We are in service to the greater whole and therefore happier to take our place in the divine dance of life.
In Evolutionary Astrology, it is said that the soul has two opposing intentions upon incarnating: one is to merge with God and the other is to separate from it.
This is represented by the journey of the zodiac with the beginning and end signs of Aries and Pisces. Aries is a Cardinal Fire sign; it initiates the zodiac cycle, and is the archetype of the pioneer and leader. The lessons here are ego differentiation in service to personal discovery and learning to use the personal will, to follow one’s instincts and animal nature. Here we learn to follow our guts and our noses to go out and hunt to eat our prey. This is a necessary part of survival in our material existence.
However, as we mature and evolve through the zodiac, we move beyond the personal will, the ‘I’ (and solely satiating the desires of this ‘I’) to dissolve into the greater Will – the will of the group, of the whole.
We learn, as we evolve through the lessons of each sign of the zodiac, that only through serving the collective, true power (akin to humility and service) can be attuned to. It is by surrendering the needs of the personal will and attuning to the needs of the collective, that true inner harmony and peace can be achieved.
By being in service to a greater purpose, we are a part of this great masterpiece of life and finally feel complete. Enter Pisces, the fantastic recognition of the force of merging and unification, with the holy satisfaction of melding with the Cosmic One. Spiritual practices like yoga and chanting mantra lead us to taste this space. There is no fear of engulfment, only a deep inner knowing and a harmony of rightness, of reverence, with this merging and tuning to wisdom. The soul feels what it is to be a part of some grand purpose, and even though we may play just a small part in it all– it is just enough. It is perfect, as it is.
Life in its spiritual simplicity. Zen.
This Piscean merging with infinite consciousness intrinsically has faith in the great mystery of life. This archetype rides the waves of the highs and lows without manipulation. There is surrender here and therefore a sense of being carried by Divine Will with a belief that will of the Divine is also in the accordance with the will of the Self as well.
It is only by surrendering to the greater Will, do we ever feel fully at peace. This is by design.
It is important that we have an intrinsic Vertical Alignment and a reciprocal connection and communication with our inner spirit. We must build a continued conversation with our inner self and through that connection (strengthened by our spiritual practices and deepest soul companions) we are able to merge with our inner world, and completely thread ourselves to it. We become tethered to our inner knowing. Inseparable within.
As we develop our inner stability, we have resolve and are not thwarted when the tests of separation come. We remain in our integrity even we are tempted by grasping for ego gratification.
It is challenging when we are tested by our ego desires. We are so hungry for something we think will bring us to God, to Love, to wholeness. That is all we are looking for, through all outer worldly accomplishments.
In our modern collective we are challenged by the ego’s arrogance and aggrandizement. Even those of us with the best intentions to serve the All are still human and have competitive, primal triggers, wounds, and animal instincts that are based on survival consciousness. This war-like competition for resources is the consciousness we are evolving from.
We can choose connection instead of the game of power over or power under. We don’t have to live in these false, ego-identified selves. We can choose to be more present and surrendered in each moment of our lives. We can choose to quiet down, to tune inward and follow our hearts and develop a sacred relationship with life. Though in society’s noise and busyness this can be very challenging to do.
We understand what the truth of abundance is. In this space of compassion we understand another’s success is not a threat to our own. Women exalt women as men do as well, fearlessly. We commit to love fully and completely and we learn to see everyone as another brother or sister.
May we learn to balance these polarities in ourselves in service to Love.
May we be fearless with our hearts and surrender to the All.
Aho. Namaste. And so it is.
In love, light, and warrior spirit,
Happy Winter Solstice!
12 Lessons I learned about transformational festivals and life in general from Oregon Eclipse 2017
Here are 12 lessons I synthesized from the recent Oregon eclipse gathering that can be a guide for any future festival goer. These lessons can also be applied to life in general and may, on a grander scheme, be the laws of the universe! Enjoy 🙂
- Be the Flow
In one of her inspirational lectures, Oprah said, “There is a flow with your name on it, find it, and it will carry you.” This truth is greatly amplified at conscious festival and gatherings. When cloistered environments are built with deep intention behind them, such as Black Rock City of Burning Man, or when people with open hearts who are ripe for awakening gather together, then this flow is really amplified.Your flow will be guided through synchronicity, set up from your spirit guides and angels, as well as the spirit guides of others directing you and the others you engage with, towards each other at the right and perfect moment.
Always say yes to the flow — it will take you through portals and invisible doorways. Say yes to these moments of truth as they present themselves. Hop from one experience to the next like your path is a train and each person is a station or a stopping point. Each experience you have will lead you to the next one.
As an aside, here is a parable to demonstrate this truth. When I lived on the beach, there was a family of peacocks I used to gather feathers from. On my walks, I would pick up each feather I saw with the knowing that each feather I collected would lead me to the next one. Even if the feather wasn’t in great shape, I would still collect it, with the understanding that doing so would direct my vision to another opportunity, another feather. Following the trail of the flow allows life to be much easier, and allows you to coast on your journey.
Let yourself embody the flow and be carried.
- Be present
If we come to a gathering like this an agenda, be it with another person, or seeing a particular show at a certain time, we will go out of our way to make sure we are at a stage or spend our entire night searching for who we want to see. When we do this we are missing out on what is actually in front of us. Searching takes us out of the present moment, where we have the opportunity to engage with and enjoy whomever is in front of us and allow the flow to take us to the next phase of our journey.
- Listen to the subtly of feelings
Our intuition speaks to us in the still small voice within. Follow your subtle feelings to move when it’s time to move, speak to a new person who is glowing at you, sit wherever you feel called, and be open to the magic. This also works when it’s time to leave a situation you’re supposed to. Sometimes holding on to a particular person or experience too long can obstruct a fresh, new experience that could have taken place. Have the courage to follow your instincts to leave whoever you are with to venture out on your own for a bit and see what magic awaits you.
- Adventure alone
Don’t be afraid to venture off solo for a little while, and allow people to come up to you and speak to you. Richer experiences take place when you are open to wherever the winds will take you. Being more accessible means you are able to connect with different people or have a beautiful conversation with others who are also on a solo mission. There is a more potent chance for deep conversation when you are not enmeshed with the flow of an entire group of people. But you have to relax, find your flow, and dance with the new people you meet. Smile and engage and you may meet a new friend or beloved.
- Remember, everyone is your friend
In groups of festival dancing, it’s really wonderful to celebrate with the collective energy of the entire group as a whole. See if you can feel the vibration of the crowd as you walk your way through them. Tuning into the oneness energy really invites great experiences. In my experience this resonance manifests as strangers complimenting your attire, telling you that they recognize you from somewhere, and inviting you to other workshops or seeing things you weren’t even aware of. This vibration opens doors and lets the universe fill you with new experiences that are beyond what you can think of. This is where the magic is.
- Also remember, not everyone is your friend
And still, it’s a good idea to keep an eye on your backpack and remember that everyone is on varying levels of consciousness and substances. The individuals on hard drugs at these gatherings will engage with you very differently than those who are not. Also you will see some people are who are emotionally and mentally imbalanced and have high levels of aggression. Energetic and physical boundaries are very important. If you are a highly sensitive empath, learning to clear your energy and ground yourself is a super important practice to do consistently. Make sure to create you own rituals that bring yourself back to center. (One of my self care rituals is shifting my energy by changing my clothing.) Make sure you are practicing self care through shielding and protecting yourself vibrationally as well as honoring yourself by securely maintaining your space.
- Open yourself to transcendence, but please stay in your body
The ritual practices and workshops at these consciousness festivals are amazing. The intentional community gathers together to create a really beautiful container that allows a more potent activation than is achieved while working alone (mostly). But at these half-conscious festivals, where there is a heavy influence from the electronic music scene, this invites a whole symphony of different vibrations.So, as we open ourselves through the rituals of breathwork and yoga (which are ancient practices that are pathways to God) we are also opening up the energetic gateways within our own magnetic fields to access a higher dimensional energy. And, we are clearing and releasing energy from our fields, such as grief and even past life emotions. This allows healing to occur, which is beautiful. This is transcendence, and why we engage in these practices in the first place. However, through opening up these channels and energetic gateways in our own being, other dimensional energies, including beings on the lower astral plane, can infuse themselves with our own essence when we are open and vulnerable to it.
It would be impossible for the workshop facilitators of these practices to babysit each one of us and make sure at the end of their class we were all back in our bodies, completely centered and grounded. So we need to make sure we are all self responsible. The same is true when we ingest entheogens. We can blow ourselves wide open to the cosmos, which is great, but we also need to make sure we are maintaining our balance.
For those on the ascension path, the higher we raise our vibration, the more subtle and refined we are. This also means that denser energies become less tolerable. If you feel flooded with other people’s energies or off-center for a prolonged period of time, ask for help from one of the healers to energetically hold space for you. This is especially true if you’ve experienced a deep healing through a series of events or during a workshop. Alternatively, ask for help from someone you trust to support you. Highly sensitive people tend to leave their bodies in order to escape the emotions of what may be coming up for us. It could be healing an ancestral trauma, a collective pattern of energy, or a personal one. If our essence has astral traveled out of our body we will need reenter it, as well as ground. Once we have cleared ourselves from any external energies, we will feel safe to reenter our bodies and embody our souls within them. Then, we will realign our energetic bodies with our physical one and start to feel centered again. But in order to go through that process and regain clarity, we may need someone else to help hold space for us to do this work.
- The Playa provides
If you lose all the friends you came with, you will find new ones. Sometimes the people you are already friends with before the festival are on their own journeys and you will be most vibrationally compatible with those you meet along the way. Be open to this, and don’t hold it against anyone you love if you’re not flowing the same way. You will still be friends after the gathering, and experience it as an opportunity to be in your own flow and on your own path.But if you are experiencing a break up of a partnership during a festival, allow the old to leave and just be open. Conscious gatherings are designed to be revelationary truth tellers from the universe, so listen to what they are offering you.
You may break up with people and old energy patterns in order to evolve and meet new found friends. For example, if your ride happens to leave without you, chances are someone camping near you will be going to the same place and you can hitch a ride back home with them. If you run out of food, equipment, need duck tape or something along those lines, your neighbor will most likely have extra. The Playa provides. ‘The Playa’ is the name of the dry lake bed that is home to the festival site of Burning Man. Gatherings like these are wonderful places to set intentions and instantaneously manifest whatever you may need.
- What you think will happen, will never happen
Again, don’t go into this with an agenda!! It’s a great idea to set some intentions or even ask for answers to some questions in your life, but try your best not to have a set expectation of something playing out a certain way.. such as a relationship, workshop, performance, or anything like that. You will experience disappointment as you attempt to achieve certain results or outcomes. These gatherings are a great place to practice letting go of outcomes. Festivals are a living breathing organism, and much like the universe, it knows what it’s doing. Let it work you.Let go of expectations, let go of agendas, and have faith in what gifts the universe is willing to share with you. The more you trust in the space of letting the unknown flood in and share the infinite with you, the more open to magic and transformation you will be… and, the more joy you will receive.
- Enjoy the ride
Every festival and gathering will have it’s own rhythm. You may notice how the weather mirrors the collective energies of the group, such as it becomes cloudy, rainy, and dreary out when it’s time to leave. Sometimes you will notice a wave throughout these events. Like a collective struggle in the beginning along with a build up of tension and energy, followed by a peak of a great release in the middle with a quiet euphoria at the end. At other times, it’s a rocky ride the whole way through, or up, down, and up again, like a roller coster.No matter what, practice non attachment and just enjoy the ride. Ride the waves with your witness mentality. Try not to think of the money you spent getting here or what you’re receiving out of the experience. Just ride the waves and come back to the flow when you lose it. Keep centered, and bring yourself back to your heart, and the present.
- Everything that falls apart, comes back together again
This is one of my favorite reoccurring lessons from the universe. We forget again and again, only to remember. Great Spirit will break us down to build us back up again. And for many, this is how transformation occurs.Even when every expectation we have falls flat and all of our dreams are crushed… when we lose our friends, our ride, our love.. we may end up with a beautiful reunion, a healing apology from our beloved, and be offered another way home with a beautiful exciting person. The totality of our experiences will coalesce.
This arc describes the healing journey, and an experience of crisis is sometimes the process of breaking down in order to break through. This is what allows us to feel fully transformed with renewed faith in life as a whole, with a greater connection to ourselves and who we truly are.
This is the journey of the phoenix, to first become ash but then to rise. This is how we are able to shape shift into something new. The phoenix archetype is the apex of the transformational journey.
- Everything will come together, and everything will unravel again…
At the end of the festival or gathering, things will bridge together in this harmonious way, teaching you lessons that find you loving yourself. You will see glimpses of potential opportunities, portals and doorways that you could cross over into, and things that you will want to manifest in the future.However, in order to put everything harmonically back into its place and allow you to enroll yourself back into your life, things will also slowly start to lose their flavor. Conversations with magical people will start to wane in their effect and you will feel as though the universe is gently unwinding again, putting you back in your place, giving you back to yourself, and allowing you to once again be headed on your own journey.
The beautiful healing experiences you’ve cherished, people that you’ve talked to, wonderful insights, and the things you’ve surrendered to will start to integrate and take their rightful place within in your heart.
You feel balanced and renewed, yet at the same time ready to go back into your life with new inspiration. You have a renewed sense of clarity of your own purpose, who you are, and an inner strength and conviction that you did not have before you embarked on this journey. As well as a clarity of the next steps to take in your own life.
This unwinding happens, I believe, so we do not attach to these heightened experiences. As everything comes back down into harmonic order, we take with us the answers and the insights we need, only to take our place, once again, in the Great Wheel of Life — in the great Matrix and in the mechanism of Life — in order to be channels and transmit the energies we receive from these intentional festivals and gatherings to, and on behalf of, the rest of the world.
By going off grid and getting out of the matrix, we are throwing ourselves into the hands of the universe to break us apart and put us back together. This kind of outing is a spiritual pilgrimage and the reason why we spend great amounts of money to get dirty, dehydrated, and galavant in the woods with one another. 🙂
It takes the faith of remembering that as we are being tested (and really, we are always just testing ourselves) to go through these energetic doorways of transformation, we are being shape shifted from the beginning to the end of our time together. And, we will be going back into the world with a set of new beliefs that are strengthened by the energies guiding our journeys, our truths, and our hearts.
Aho Mitakuye Oyasin – For all of my relations.
Dedicated to the Rainbow Warrior tribe that is continually integrating these Waves of Ascension, and especially those integrating the shifts we experienced together during the Oregon Eclipse, bringing those truths back into the marketplace, back into the matrix, and radiating Babylon with the love, clarity, and the peace we found in ourselves in support of our journeys by honoring the eclipse, these rituals, ourselves, and the cycles of time.
As we come together as a family, this rainbow warrior tribe, all connecting on different levels of awakening, we are being the call to create our New Paradigm.
We are on a mission in service to heart centered consciousness, to passionately wake up this world and honor the deep and infinite Love that lives in All.
Aho. Namaste. And so it is.
In love, light, and warrior spirit,
Capricorn Full Moon – July 2017 | Commitment to our Dharma, In Sickness and In Health
Letting go of our idealism when committing to one’s path…
Welcome to the Capricorn Full Moon!
Today I want to speak of how those of us who identify as Rainbow Warriors, as the bringers of a new and transformational consciousness must first be transformed by these energies so we can embody and then transmit theses frequencies to others. The pain that we go through in transmuting these energies within ourselves, matures and creates wisdom in each of us, allowing us further discipline and self mastery.
The sign of Capricorn is ruled by the planet Saturn. Saturn has been called, ‘The Lord of Karma, Father Time, and also shares an alignment with the Rune Nauthiz, the bringer of pain and limitation. But it’s also the archetype of achievement and the philosophy of, ‘Hard work will earn you great rewards’ as well as ‘Due to the passing of time and respect for disciplining our inner nature we will gain insight, wisdom, great depth, and an integrated maturity. We will then achieve a level of self mastery.’
This earthy energy works with the material realm in it’s most evolved aspect. Achievement is therefore in turn to build the enterprise of the world one lives in, to architect our life and destiny. This is the highest call of Capricornian energy. Building and achieving to empower and lead. To become the Grandfather.
Discipline and hard work is required in the achievement of mastery of one’s craft, and we must commit ourselves in order to reap the full benefits we know that we are able to cultivate.
And, to gear this lesson towards the current consciousness of Rainbow Warrior Tribe, I want to bring up the notion of idealism in the perception of what it is to be transformational teachers and healers. Those of us who have incarnated to fulfill these roles are leaders. We are often on a transformational journey ourselves, so we can then guide and heal others bringing them across the bridge, as we are assigned to.
We act as anchor points for this new era of consciousness and therefore, we must be in integrity with the currents of that energy in order to seed these frequencies of light onto the Earth. That is why ascension consciousness has these intense polarities and swings in our collective fields. Our journeys, with their intense ups and downs must be lived through with courage and awareness to this higher truth, with an inner knowledge that we are strong enough to be risen like offerings, and then crushed again to be refined and made into fine wines as this poem by Rumi states..
The grapes of my body can only become wine
After the winemaker tramples me.
I surrender my spirit like grapes to his trampling
So my inmost heart can blaze and dance with joy.
Although the grapes go on weeping blood and sobbing
“I cannot bear any more anguish, any more cruelty”
The trampler stuffs cotton in his ears: “I am not working in ignorance
You can deny me if you want, you have every excuse,
But it is I who am the Master of this Work.
And when through my Passion you reach Perfection,
You will never be done praising my name.”
There is great idealism created by the highs of transformational work. We have bohemian festivals where we dance, sing, and pray. We see yoga teachers on retreat and people creating videos from the beach on how to stay positive (guilty 😉 ) and it’s all very glamourous.
However, I’d like to offer and example of how those of us who are called to be vessels of consciousness, bringers of an aspect of the ethereal into this dimension, must first face their own shadows in order to transmute and transmit those qualities of consciousness.
At a transformational festival recently, I was speaking to the artist who provided the backdrop scenery for the stages. All of the paintings were of Hindu deities modeled after people he loved that depicted the specific archetype of consciousness that deity represented.
For example, Lakshmi represents wealth and abundance and the warrior and divine masculine destroyer aspect is represented by Shiva.
As he spoke about the paintings he described the ease but also the challenges he faced throughout the process of painting these archetypes. The archetypes that he felt naturally comfortable expressing were very easy to create, as he had integrated those energies within himself and therefore effortlessly onto the canvas. But the archetypes he tended to reject in himself were the paintings he struggled to finish, and also had to work with, and embody the energies of, while he was creating them.
I too, had an experience like this in my own life, while creating a Tarot Card deck. In 2013, I started to design a Major Arcana deck that montaged classical images from old photographs and paintings. Though the designs I created were rich very lovely, because of the transmutational process in each one I only finished 6 cards. My first card was effortless, The High Priestess naturally flew out of me, and then in no time later, the Hermit.
These are archetypes I fully embody and have no problem working with. My hermit depicted a Sadhu from India sitting on a magic carpet, and all was well. 🙂 But then, as I was led to create the Tower and the Devil card in succession, I was so depressed and had deep challenges in relationships with dear friends come up durin
g those weeks as I was making the cards. Feelings of inadequacy, of loneliness, and despair. Though the designs came out beautifully, the process was painstaking. And so soon after, my desire to follow through with that offering diminished.
Technically, I’m still working on Temperance. This is the card I was stuck on, and of course has a deep personal meaning for me. I was born on the 14th and that is the 14th archana card, which symbolizes balance, restraint, and the middle way where nothing is excess. As someone who is richly passionate and tends to live in emotional extremes, being centered and living in balance as this card represents has been a growing edge in my life.
But I digress…
So as we who are leaders of change and transformational consciousness are called to step into our roles as speakers, teachers, and healers, we will also be transformed by our work. This is a part of the process, and we haven’t been doing anything wrong by always having to, ‘Go through it.” This is just the nature of transformation itself, and therefore those of us who are meant to offer these deep rituals of transformational work must first be transformed by the work ourselves in order to embody these new energies and radiate them outwards.
We cannot avoid this process, and although it can be very painful, it is part of the nature of consciousness.Transmutation leads to growth and is part of the path of coming into maturity and evolving towards wisdom.
Enter the Rune of constraint, Natuthiz
As Capricorn represents the stabilizing energy of structure and discipline it as well as represents boundaries and our physical limitations. As humans, we live in a 3D, material reality, unlike the boundlessness of the astral realm. Those of us who are a bit magical and have multidimensional consciousness remember that is is possible to think things into existence. But on Earth, things take more time. To sprout a seed, it takes a delicate balance of energy, water, light, and the proper soil and environment in which to grow. Our ideas, projects, and even we ourselves similarly need conducive environments in order to flourish.
In the astral realm, out of thought, word (or sound/vibration), and intention, we are able to bring the unmanifest into form. We can co-create reality. This is Magic, the archetype of the Magi. “From my will, I create and bring this into existence.” We do this a bit on this plane of reality by aligning our will with the nature of the cosmos, but here we must also negotiate with limitations, our own karma, and the will of the others involved. Here on Earth we are subject to the limitations of space and time and other constraints.
“Use your fate, do not strive against it.” – Guido Von List
But we can also use this energy to help solidify our foundations so our tree of life will one day flourish. Offering yourself what feeds your roots will enable your tree to grow.
So, I would say this full moon represents us looking at our Dharma. What our work is on the Earth, and seeing in what ways we can better digest the limits and constrains that are a part of our path so we can commit ourselves more fully to the scope of our work. We can also ask ourselves in which ways those constraints are asking us to become a bigger, more expanded, and more disciplined version of ourselves. The way through is by saying yes to commitment, to personal responsibility, and showing perseverance.
When we say yes to the cycles of time and to the seasons, we are surrendering to the fact that there will be ups and downs and understand that they are part of the transformational work. These transformations happen to us regardless whether we are walking our paths consciously, in a visceral and intense way, or just allowing these changes to happen slowly over time.
So the question then becomes, “How much are we going to allow ourselves to be changed and transformed in order to really awaken?” If we have deep beliefs in the higher purpose of awakening out of the matrix of reality and changing the consciousness of our planet then the process must start from within. We have to surrender and allow ourselves to be molded into our own unique highest version.
This takes into account the whole cycle of of transformation, which includes really recognizing our shadows, seeing where we get in our own way, and when were sabotaging ourselves. Looking at this and taking inventory of our lives is not always pleasant but it’s real. It’s important on the road to empowerment that we empower ourselves by taking responsibility and ownership over the ways we hold ourselves just shy of our greatest potential.
Because we as transmitters of this new consciousness of reality, must allow ourselves to be transformed from within in order to radiate and transmit that frequency of transformation out and into the world.
We are like little acupuncture needles on this planet, the light grid of Rainbow Warriors, who act as pinpoints that align and connect the higher frequencies of consciousness onto the earth.
And so it is.
In love, light, and warrior spirit,
Additional reading on Nauthiz
This Rune is sometimes referred to as “the great teacher.” Nauthiz allows us the opportunity to truly look deep within, open up all those doors in the hallways of our minds, and let the healing light of sun, the freshness of the breezes of the air, and the honesty to our own self allow us to open the door wide to a better understanding of whom we truly are.
Full Moon in Sagittarius – June 9th
Greetings Rainbow Warriors!
Today I feel like starting the report with the planetary aspects.. Here is a little astrology for you all to consider. See how it aligns with and correlates to the collective energies, and what you have been processing on your own spiritual journeys.
The same day of this full moon in Sag, Jupiter the ruler of Sag goes Direct! Also, Neptune starts a retrograde cycle on June 16th. Jupiter was retrograde since February 9th and now goes direct at the time of the full moon. And Neptune was direct since the 19th of November, so from now until this coming November, we are able to process everything since that last cycle began.
Life and energy is a spiral. We evolve through these cycles upon cycles upon cycles. We are always shifting from birth to death, and from dying to being reborn.
So there are two key cycles here that are shifting here in June and over the next two weeks. So you’ll see there are patterns that are coming to a close. One is the phase that began in February (represented by Jupiter in Libra) and now all that we’ve learned and integrated through those eclipses has been (finally) digested. And with the changes that have taken place from last November up until now (represented by Neptune in Pisces) we now have the opportunity to integrate those shifts, from now till this coming November.
And since, right now, all of the personal planets are going direct, Mars, Venus, Mercury, there is a bit of a feeling of a new beginning. Venus did an epic retrograde the first half of the year in Aries and Pisces and we were all taught lessons of self love. Now as of June 6th Venus moved out of Aries and into Taurus which is a slow sensuous energy that Venusian beings would much more prefer to be in. The archetype shifts into surrendering to beauty, love, food, slowing down, relaxing and enjoying the pleasures and sensuality of life instead of battling for them. She’s only there for a month until the 5th of July.
Now with these shifts in energy and these cycles that are completing there is a rebirthing happening from the integration. We are taking all of that information we’ve been working with since last fall and starting our personal spiritual journey of entrepreneurship (if you will) either back down the rabbit hole into our subconscious or full swing pioneering with our gifts into the world again, but either way we are beginning next cycle of our lives.
So now on a more personal level, some of you know that I’ve just come back from a two week retreat in Bolivia. Going on retreat is so personal and so inwardly transformative, that what I share in detail will be shared moderately and with discernment to keep it sacred. However, what I see that we share most with people by doing inner work like this is how we become an entirely different person through these experiences. It’s like shedding a skin. Aspects of our being are released, and we are connected more to our true nature (Soul Self) by letting go of emotional toxicity and purging out energies that need no longer be connected with our walk.
Journeys like these are incredible. And I know there is a lot of spiritual glamour connected with being a retreat leader, but I hope one day, I can help lead and guide others through these kinds of transformations. I would like this kind of work to be a deep part of my life.
Connected to spiritual glamour is the current lesson I am working with, and the transmission that came to share for this full moon report. Our moon lesson is: Disidentification with the Ego.
In my Baron Baptiste style yoga training, there are the ‘do’s and do not’s’ of yoga teaching. One of the do not’s of teaching yoga is, ‘Concern for looking good’. Teachers limit their freedom, their choices, and voices if we are self conscious and concerned with being right instead of just being.
Being of service to Spirit and surrendering to Spirit’s higher plan means maybe something grand that we don’t even know about yet is coming to us. But we tend to focus on what we can see, saying, ‘I want to create this specific outcome’ or ‘I want to manifest this.’ or ‘I want this as a status symbol.’ or ‘This please, universe! This.. this will make me feel complete.’
Let’s attempt disidentification with our egos, especially during this time of ambition and new phase of energy while the planets are moving forward and so are we. Remembering to notice the choice points that began in November and February and witness how everything is shifting and wrapping up.
During our new beginning, in this time of ambition, this time of manifestation for all of our dreams and desires.. we are being asked, (or I am being shown and I share it with you) to disidentify from our egos and not pigeonhole our lives to a certain conglomeration but rather be open to a higher frequency to take over and direct us. Allow for a Higher Learning to occur.
This is how to be.
Really surrendering is trusting that everything is taken care of, as opposed to obsessing over outcomes, status, and outer, worldly results. Know that Spirit is working with us unconditionally and through the unconditional love of through the teams of our Guides, Angels, and Ancestors that we call it now… and all of the Bird Tribes and Rainbow Warriors and all of our assistance in our divine connection to God. Let us be channels that are open to serve love and be in service to it.
To the extent that we are, we will then be supported and there are no limits. We will be protected, we will be supported, and we will be guided. And it is so.
We are surrendered in service to the good of the whole and what wants to be done through us.. rather than focused narrowly on what we are wanting with our small minded egos that need to believe it is separate and everything must be in service to it.
So to the extent we identify with our egos we separate ourselves from being in this exquisite soup of creation together.. or, this Divine Orchestra. How well do we resonate with others in our ensemble and sing ceremoniously together? How do we merge our vibrations in harmony as instruments of the good, beautiful, and the true?
The ego, though necessary, perpetuates separation and duality. But the higher consciousness of love, universally, understands oneness.
I have yet to embody this, but I am heading this way. I am learning. Inch by inch. Step by step.
Aho, Namaste and So It Is.
In Love, Light, and Rainbow Warrior Spirit,
Full Moon in Scorpio – May 2017 – Integrating Our Upgrades
– or –
How to not lose your shit when you go through an ascension process
(and why it’s ok if you do)
We had a major transformational shift during this past weekend of upgrades, and upgrades I’ve found, can make us feel like we’re losing our shit. So, I created this article and video about, “How not to lose your shit through a transformational upgrade.” It’s by remaining centered and remembering that everything eventually comes full circle and trusting that Spirit will realign us and bring us through.
When things are falling apart internally, quietly know that you will be brought back together.
But we don’t always feel like this as we are defragmenting. We feel chaotic, out of balance, and off center. We feel that something is happening ‘to us’ instead of ‘for our growth.’ A way out is through remembering that these cycles happen to us continuously… though I am not sure we consciously can during these phases. In order to be put back together again we need to come apart completely, and the decent into chaotic energy seems to be a part of this process. Though perhaps through mindfulness and surrender, the ride can be a little less painful.
During these ascension phases we are being flooded with undercurrents of emotion which are really deep purification processes that come up to the surface for healing. Then the best thing we can do if we are able, is to get out in nature. Commune, relax, restore, and pray. Ask for clarity.
Sometimes we won’t even know what’s going on, we will just feel off center. We won’t know what’s clearing and healing because it’s happening in layers and in pieces. We will just feel off, not in balance, not quite right in our own skin. These are signs of an energetic upgrade, or to put it another way, a cleansing and a purging of outmoded and limited belief systems from our psyches.
One of my first spiritual teachers was a lovely intuitive reader named George, and he told me once that as we grow on our path our spirit guides will also change, new ones will come and old ones may step back, and we will feel a bit disoriented during those times of transition. I think this is what happens when we experience these cosmic upgrades and realignments. The shifting of our Spirit Guides also happens around our birthdays, when we travel, or have important life events.
Another way to come back into balance when we’re feeling fuzzy, and not 100% in our bodies is a great acupuncture session. During an upgrade is a really beautiful time to receive energy work, reiki healing, massage, or a sound healing session. Go to someone you really trust and allow them to create a space where you can drop back into your body. Go see a powerful intuitive healer and use the time to clear and take care of yourself.
Sometimes our normal practices, such as our daily yoga and meditation practice won’t work as they usually do when we’re going through a shift in frequency and we have to change our routine. And that’s the thing, we have to trust if every stable thing we’ve ever known feels like it’s falling away and our energy seems to be just pouring out of our being.. we have to remember that it is part of a realignment and the fragmentation we’re experiencing is a part of a greater process that will bring us back stronger into our center.
I remember years ago having the realization that when I lose my center it’s alright because when I find it again I will be stronger and have leveled up another rung up the spiral. Constantly ‘spiraling upwards’ as I heard Allyson Grey describe it. It’s a gift when we remember this during the defragmentation process.
I’d also like to bring up the concept of a Shamanic Death. For a new life to be born (within a soul’s evolution during one lifetime) old psychic constructs must die. As these awarenesses arise, we must surrender and allow this greater transformation. To the extent that we are identified with those constructs, relationships, and roles as a part of ourselves, we will feel as though we ourselves are dying. Grief then, is a large part of this process. And if we are blessed, we will allow ourselves to take space and time for these deeper emotions to cycle through us and run their course.
Understandably, not all of us have the down time where we can take time out and relax (some of us have children 😉 ) and sometimes these deeper processes arise and hit us out of nowhere, and yet we still collectively are tasked with moving through these ascension upgrades and not having downtime makes it very difficult.
But it’s important to maintain our connections to ourselves through nature, and take some time to have healing work done and rest when we need it. Paying attention, deeply, to what is actually going on through us, because when we listen and surrender we understand the lessons, and that is what shifts our energy. When we tune into the deeper messages that our souls, angels, guides, and ancestors are sending to us, we will feel the transmutation take place.
Then by releasing the old frequencies and transmuting them into new awarenesses we come back into alignment. We are reborn like the phoenix, into a new phase of growth. Constantly spiraling up. This is the ascension process.
And each little shift we make is a part of a larger process, and each larger cycle creates our spiritual journey. So a large part of, “How not to lose our shit” while we go through each little shift is to remember that this is a process and to trust the process.
Trust the process of life, trust the process of realignment, and remember this message next time you’re feeling off center or like you’re not in your body.
If you’re wondering what ‘not being in your body’ feels like, it feels like you’re subtly disconnected from yourself and it makes it hard to ground or do practical, everyday, 3D type things. You will feel fuzzy and off-center. When we learn to get into our bodies fully we are able to show up, be present, and really engage with each other. We are also much better at doing business and 3D practical stuff!
Some of us who are beings of multidimensional consciousness leave our bodies very often and tend to float above ourselves. Grounding and rooting can be painstaking initially, but once we learn to embody ourselves fully we can truly be vessels for source energy to move through us and serve the world with love. We are empowered to stand up for ourselves and be present here on Earth and deliver our consciousness, gifts, and talents to the world.
Rainbow Warriors are like The Star card in the Tarot. We are here to be bridges of beautiful, intergalactic dimensions of universal light, love, and higher consciousness and bring these frequencies to our survival based, instinctual, 3D world. We are here to be shining examples of spiraling up, Rainbow Warriors of the Light, and depict what it means to embody the higher realms and reach transcendent states. We are here to teach the integration of all things through universal consciousness, and deliver these truths in such a way the greater consensus reality will hear us… as we offer, in service, our gifts to an audience and a culture that is more and more ready to receive.
I hope this serves you.
Aho. Namaste. And So it is.
In love, light, and warrior spirit,
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In Love, Light, and Warrior Spirit,
We are rising up like the phoenix from the fire, we are rising up and the flames are going higher.
We are rising up like the phoenix from the fire, we are rising up and the flames are going higher.
WE ARE RISING. WE ARE RISING. WE ARE RISING.
We are rising…
October 2016. The very beginning point of a new chapter in all of our lives. The page has turned. And together, we, the Rainbow Warriors, have journeyed through the 1st Wave of Ascension. And now, we are embarking on the 2nd Wave. I believe this will be another 4-year cycle, with a transition year of 2020 and the 3rd wave dawning in 2021. Our first wave began around June of 2012 (with the Venus transit) really solidifying in the fall around September/October. The difference for us during this 2nd wave of consciousness awakening is now, we as Rainbow Warriors, have tuned into our job descriptions. We have found each other and other souls on a similar frequency through Facebook, YouTube, Conscious Media, Transformational Festivals, and other gatherings and events. We understand more about our souls and our unique mission to pioneer the consciousness of Universal Love and Oneness to restore balance with nature and bring peace to the earth. We are Teachers, Preachers, Healers, and Counselors – Musicians, Artists, and Dancers and we are all speaking one truth above all others, “We choose Love over Fear. We follow our hearts, and we serve Love.”
The last two-month cycle for all of us has been a whirlwind. Many people were called to be traveling, uprooted, moving from one point on the grid to another. During this time it felt like we were all chips that Great Spirit tossed up in the air and we were just hovering.. waiting for the dust to settle, waiting for our new direction. When in actuality our hearts and souls sang a silent song of knowing just where we were going, what road we were on, and what glimpse of the future could possibly be, if we could only believe it.
And now it is becoming.
We have moved around like pieces in a new puzzle. We are connected to other members of the light web that we, as souls, are meant to do business with. Spiritual work for the evolution of not only you – but for all of us. We are grid keepers, frequency shifters, interweaving our infinite and physical selves through playing with each other and being together. So much more goes on in the higher realms when we are together that we sense but cannot always see the details of. The love that we share with other souls of a similar potency radiates outward and in turn, serves Love. Love begets love. We are pollinating the planet with more conscious mindfulness. We are here to wake others up with us as we awaken.
So many souls on this frequency of Rainbow Warrior are in families that are open to their awakening consciousness, but they are really following our lead. We are the catalysts that allow them to cross over and share the journey with us. All souls will awaken in their own time, in their own soul group. We, on the first wave, will be ushering in the next group of souls who are about be initiated as we have just been. Their initiatory journeys are in Phase 1 as we embark on our Round 2. We are their way-showers. On and on in a ripple effect it goes, as the great masters of the Piscean Age have been guides for us and lead us into our own awareness of Cosmic Consciousness.
So now, we as Rainbow Warriors have our missions and we are charged with the task of grounding these missions into reality. How are we to become full-time Mystics within the Matrix? It takes deep faith, profound commitment, trust in Great Spirit and ourselves to be the bridges co-creating this new reality. I know there are more of us than ever who are stepping into their full potential, building platforms together, and helping each other and build community. I know there are those of us called to share sacred song, to write, do healings, give lectures and workshops, to study and teach sacred temple arts and share these practices with the world. I see many building conscious communities, eco-villages, and collectives that are here to be the temples where these practices are shared and trainings for the next wave of conscious warriors can be held.
We have risen. We are rising. Continuously dying and rebirthing ourselves. This next phase is about community, connecting with your tribe, and sharing your medicine in a more profound and richer way than ever before. It’s about birthing yourself into the world in full Cosmic Conscious identity, whatever form that takes. It’s about the sacred remembrance of your soul’s truth and transmitting that frequency at full throttle, in full celebration of it. It’s about self-love, soul love, conscious partnership, and connection. It’s about healing, shifting, and bringing the ancient wisdom that teaches being in harmony with the higher laws of nature and Mother Earth and merging that with the realms of the infinite and all dimensions of Angelic Wisdom Consciousness. It’s about humility, reverence, and power in service to Love. May we all dwell in truth and in integrity. May we serve Love and the royalty in ourselves and each other well.
May we begin this next phase of consciousness with a remembrance in our Unity. And may we walk in faith, with intention, and with Grace.
Aho. Namaste. And so it is.
In Love, Light, and Warrior Spirit,
This is about getting in touch with the fire element. Inner conviction. Attuning to your passion, your purpose, your willfulness.. and the power of self-belief.
Yesterday morning my iPhone was stolen. At dawn. In Cape Canaveral. On my sacred private beach filled with, at the most, 50 retirees at one time jogging up and down the coast.
For two years I’ve had a daily ritual of seeing the sunrise, as well as leaving my belongings wherever I felt, within reason. I wouldn’t leave my laptop out, but I’d definitely walk away from my phone and my keys, which now I know better. So I was shocked and surprised when it happened. Surprised.. and pissed.. which is rare.
Anger wasn’t an emotion I allowed into my sphere. My natural inclination has always been to get sad or depressed about things instead of getting mad at them. I couldn’t touch my anger.. it felt like there was a wall blocking my ability to access that emotion within. Earlier this year at a workshop in Guatemala I did an emotional release exercise that allowed the expression of anger. I think that shifted things.. I remember feeling like a doorway had opened.
I felt my anger for the first time in my life and allowed it to be there. Well, actually, I tried to calm myself and recenter. My anger was vivid. It was fiery and inside my heart. The fire spoke, “I am going to change this.”
This is the other side of the coin from accepting what life presents us at all times, which I have been learning. Go slow, be mindful, wait for serendipity and move with the flow. But the reverse is also true. Where there is a will there’s a way.
I forget how badass I can be since I live a quiet hippie life and I am not often pushed into expressing my warrior’s courage. That, and in the new age community we often suppress these emotions. I’ve learned to not express that part of myself because of the terror I’ve seen in people’s eyes when I embody my Kali aspect. She may kill you with her gaze. And yes, that too is me. I am beginning to embrace this.
So the thief shut the phone off for the first few hours and I couldn’t track it. During which I took a shower, screamed (which was interesting), shared the news with a friend, did some yoga and cardio, and decided to get ready for my day. I had to do some grading and had planned to be super productive and prepare for my future excursion.
At the local café around 10am, I intuit to check Find my iPhone again. It’s on. OMG. I become a huntress. My focus gets sharp. It’s 20 min away in a run-down neighborhood by the bus station. Fair enough.
I call the Sherriff’s Office of Brevard County. I do this for a few reasons. One, I am on the hunt and I want to go in with muscle. Two, I’d briefly read an article, “What to do if your iPhone gets stolen” and it said, “Don’t go knocking on the person’s door without a police escort, that’s very dangerous.” Noted.
I have to be honest, though. I knew when I was calling it wasn’t going to amount to anything. The hippie aspect of my parents always told me, ‘Never trust the police.’ and that cops were useless. I have only needed them less than a handful of times in my life, thank God, but my sentiments are the same. They never seem to help.
Just as an aside, I do respect the integrity of people who want to right wrongs, bring justice, and save people from negative and harmful situations. I have deep respect for the souls who do this work. I have respect for the military and the men and women who serve. I’ve just never been helped by the police.
As the cop comes to the café, the phone is on the move, heading south. He tells me he can’t take me in his car, can’t chase down my phone, can’t go online to track it for me because he can’t even go on Pandora. He’s the only officer on duty in my city and he can’t leave the area. Other cities don’t have anything to do with it, so it’s no one’s problem.
Meanwhile, the phone makes its way back north on the same route. Is the phone riding the bus? Excellent. Come home to mama.
The cute couple from Alabama seated across from me are cheering me on. They are about to get on a cruise to the Bahamas.
I am fueled, at this point, with passion. The obstacle of calling the police and having nothing happen actually inspires more rage and determination. That, and the fact that the phone is heading back towards me.
This passion is the antithesis of what non-attachment is and the essence of what Buddha’s four noble truths dictate. But there is power here. This kind of passion needs to be respected and not, in every case, transcended.
All I can see is getting my freaken phone back. It’s right there. It’s mine. Give it. Hunt.
Though I am alone, I am non-negotiably going after it. I hit obstacle after obstacle along the way. Usually, when that happens I freak out and go home to re-center thinking if synchronicities aren’t happening and life isn’t opening door after door for me I am doing something wrong. Because I wasn’t yet in touch with my will. I wasn’t comfortable claiming something that was mine. Not in this case.
I try and get some friends to come with me, but no one has time. I ask for directions and a hotspot nearby and didn’t get help. My perspective shifts and I see our world in a new light. In what we call the ‘real world’ or consensus reality, everyone is out for themselves. Your problem is not their problem. No one puts themselves out to be of service. Now, I believe in self-responsibility and self-reliance, but in the world myself and other compassionate, conscious individuals are creating we connect from our hearts and we help each other. In Lak’ech. I am another you. And since you are me, we figure things out together. It’s a good awakening for the diversity I am going to meet on the road ahead.
So I find the bus station. No parking. I connect to Wi-Fi from my laptop in my car, (thank God it’s is everywhere). My phone seems to be walking down the street I am on.. but a bit behind me. I look, go too far, and make a U-turn. I park on the right side of the street.
Directly to my right, there’s a park bench with 5 or 6 middle-aged, African-American men who are now staring at me. I also see 3 women a few yards to their left, who are (ironically) passing a phone back and forth (not mine). My heart knows.
I think again about calling the police. Why? So they can do nothing and I can wait here? How do I know who has it? As I sit the iPhone on find my iPhone shuts off. No. I feel the anger again, the rage. I step out of the car, hopping over the wooden plank fence (wearing a sequenced Indian skirt) and walk over to the men. And you know what was interesting? I wasn’t scared. And I didn’t hate them. They were souls. I loved them. It was psychedelic.
I opened my mouth and spoke with love, “Someone stole my iPhone…” Immediately one of them said, “Is this it?” and held up my phone. I jumped for joy! OMG. I said, “Oh my God. I want to hug you but you stole my phone so..” They all started talking at once. “He didn’t steal it.”, “You should give me $10.”, “Someone else took it and he bought it from him.” Then two other men from outside the circle came up and vibrationally gave me the cue that my business was done. I followed that, thanked them and left.
I smiled, acknowledged the women respectfully as I passed, and got in my car with my phone. It was intact, had not been erased, and get this.. had a new screen protector! My old one was cracked. All they did was change the wallpaper and the screen protector on my phone. So all and all, I got an upgrade.
Talk about the cosmic giggle of the universe.
So now, I understand willfulness. I think this has been a long time coming. I understand rage and the beauty of anger. I see courage as rage of the heart. I value determination and a belief in one’s will. A character trait the universe has been urging me to embody.
Conviction can be just as powerful as miracles and waiting for divine synchronicity. Sometimes we have to decide what we want, have our own backs, and go after it. Trust within, and the world will acquiesce.
And I am a huntress.
Aho. Namaste. And so it is.
In love, light, and warrior spirit,
I recently experienced a huge shift that put into perspective every relationship I’ve ever had.
One that allows me to see each being I care for as a whole person, one who is on their own path of growth and journey to God. But in order to honor and love them in their fullness, I must first recognize it within. This allows me to give and receive love in a new way than ever before.. from wholeness.
Being able to love without the fear of lack, the feeling that the other is my source for opening to God.. or that I need to reach out to them for anything to connect with my own sense of wholeness.
Instead, I am able to remember that I am love, that I am fine whether they come or whether they go, that I can let love flow through me.. to remember the truth that I am love.. and love comes from everywhere and everything. That is my eternal nature, and that is the source of my fullness. To remember that I am good.. And, as people continue to pass in and out of my life, this belief allows me to love them freely in a healthy way, with lots of space around it, lots of allowing whatever is to be, to be. Also allowing change and growth and shifting, basically allowing the nature of transformation.. and knowing all is perfect within.
I am embodying this now more than ever before. I am able to consciously remember, as I connect with beings I love with my entire soul, to allow them to be separate from me.. to not need anything from them, but to welcome the receiving of love as our dances and vibrations merge and come into alignment. This is a gift I am growing to accept more and more. I am expanding into it, and it has transmuted me from a place of co-dependency to a place of self-sufficiency. Now, I am grateful to feel more expanded and connected to the All with another person than I do when I am alone, but there is no craving because I am certain and aware of all the little packages Great Spirit brings love through. And beyond all this, because I am committed to my eternal source of connection within. This is how we fully access love. It is through listening to the songs of own souls, tuning to the wisdom of our own hearts, and trusting ourselves to guide our way on…
From Doorway to Doorway – Surrendering Control in 2016
It’s 2016, let go of control.
It seems the spirit guides and earthy guardians that help direct our lives, for those of us who are tuned in, tapped in, turned on (as Abraham-Hicks would say) to the more subtle dimensions of consciousness we are experiencing would like us to have more of a ‘hands off’ approach during the coming cycle of energy.
2016 is the year of the RED MONKEY. Tricky monkey, as I like to say when I meet people of that totem. It seems to me there will be lots of changes taking place. I see 2016 as a year of PRACTICE and TRANSITION before our next new phase solidifies.
And what I am receiving and being reminded of is that these changes are always for the best. The new life is always greater than the old. The next rung of the spiral is always a greater evolution than the previous one we were comfortable on.
But what the energetic and emotional truth is, is that change is scary.. and when one chapter ends.. when another door opens and a new life begins..
Stepping through that door can lead to panicky feelings arising in the body, resistance comes in the form of shadows, and issues from the past come up that we need to forgive, all so we can be ‘so fresh and so clean’ when we enter into the dawn of a new cycle of consciousness.
We all react in different tones of resistance. Some people are adventurous and optimistic. Others have anxiety and panicky emotions.
For me, there is always a deep grieving as I am processing the old. There’s this deep releasing, and a purging that needs to happen of shadow emotions. I mourn the missed opportunities I clearly see now in hindsight of the chapter that has just closed. I surrender to this process by taking inventory of all of my blind spots and adjusting to the new awareness I only see now because I have shifted frequency.
A lot of things come up to the surface when we are in these energetically shifting times.
Remember that every ending is also a cycle of rebirth. There is a new dawn upon us and we are starting our next new wave of energy in February, which catapults us forward with the new moon on the 8th. It will be a time of new life and new beginnings. A lot of us will be capitalizing during this cycle of growth through previous alignment to where we made more expansive choices, let go of fear, and surrendered to Great Spirit at the close of 2015.
And for those areas where we are still in the process of surrendering, we will be constantly reminded to take our hands off the steering wheel, to let go of control, and have faith that what is meant for us will come to us and our good will always arrive.
What is meant for us will come to us. What is yours will come to you.